Thursday, January 1, 2009

A New Weight Loss Journey

BEFORE:

Happy New Year.

I'm still working on my writing goals for the upcoming year. So many stories I want to tell but not enough hours in the day to get them all done. And those hours that I do have I need to manage better. I mentioned before about my desire to set up a SuccessTeam - so I've been working on how I want that to look and will start drumming up some team members next week. I already have two people who expressed an interest in joining me.

However, I waddled by butt back to Weight Watchers and I've managed to find that last 10 lbs I lost - again. I swear I've lost and regained that same weight four times. My two sisters and I have a system, we can't all lose weight at the same time. Whenever one of us loses weight one of us finds it. This time my youngest sister, who was visiting from TO, lost about forty pounds. Both me and my other sister managed to gain weight since we were last together. The same 30-40 lbs circulates between us. I don't want to be skinny like I was back in my twenties. Took way too much effort. But I do want to be healthy and fit.

When I was younger I could lose weight really fast and I've been discouraged the last couple of times I've dieted by how slow the weight came off. That made me feel frustrated and discouraged. This time I'm looking at the whole weight loss as a journey. A year's project. I'm going to embrace if for the entire 365 days.

Weight has always been a big issue in my life. I was a chubby child and teenager but managed to lose a lot of weight and keep it off for about twenty years. Somehow I see regaining weight as a failure. When I encounter people I haven't seen in the past few years I avoid them because I think they're going to judge me. In my head I can hear them saying things like "what happened to her? she used to look good..." or "wow, she's fat again." I've turned and walked the other way rather than talk to someone I really like and haven't seen for ages. I avoid reunions and get togethers with old friends because I feel bad about the weight.

It's funny that I feel that way because I don't care what other people look like. I like them just the way they are. I like that people come in all shapes and sizes. That we're all different inside and out - that's what makes everyone so interesting. And I admire women who carry themselves with confidence. You know they kind of person who sweeps into the room and all eyes are on them just because they have that sense of self that is so attractive?

Along with WW and the gym I'm also going to try a recipe a week out of the Weight Watchers cook book. That will be a good way not to get sick and tired of the same old food. I have the cookbook on the right and it has good recipes in it.
I'll post the recipe and my ratings each week along with my weight loss numbers.

5 comments:

Kelly Boyce said...

Ha! I was on the Fat Chicks website getting my pound counter today too. I joined the gym last month and am glad I did. Its probably the only thing that saved me this holiday season but I still feel like a gelatinous slob. I put back on all the weight I'd lost last year because I got lazy and stopped watching my portion sizes, so now I'm back at it. Let me know what this SuccessTeam thingy you're talking about is. Is it a weight watchers thing or something else?

Cat Schield said...

Good luck with the weight loss. I too have added back the pounds that I lost 2 years ago. I know exactly what to do to get them back off, but I haven't quite recommitted yet. I call it "wait gain". Food is comfort. It's a tough cycle for me to break.

Best of luck! I'll be pulling for you.

Anne MacFarlane said...

Kelly, the SuccessTeam thing is something I'm organizing as support for reaching both my writing and healthy living goals this year.

I'm planning on meeting every second week - maybe Saturday morning. The common theme will be writing goals but won't be restricted to just that - in addition you can add exercise, weight loss, job change, education goals,etc.,

Let me knnow if you're interested.

Anne MacFarlane said...

Thanks Cat. I think you have to be ready to make the leap. I ate everything in sight for the two weeks before I went back to WW because I knew I wouldn't be eating after the New Year.

Julia Smith said...

The weight that keeps finding you - LOL! That could be a funny book, I know it could...