One of my New Year's resolutions was to get up at 6am and write for two hours. That way, no matter how busy the day, I knew I would get in at least two hours. A friend actually writes entire books this way. Two hours everyday. Day after Day. Until they have a completed MS.
So, up at 6am everyday, so far, this week. IF you knew me well you'd know how shocking this is. But I like it. I like feeling that I'm the only one awake in my part of the world and that those two hours are just for me. I can write what I want. What makes me happy.
I also feel more in control of the rest of the day. I'm not stumbling around making my kid's school lunch minutes before they run out of the house for the school bus. I'm not leaving my bed unmade as I charge out of the house because I'm running late.
This morning I had a little glitch. My oldest decided to get up at 6.30am and take a shower before heading out to the early bus. And she wouldn't leave me alone. Finally she looks at me and asks. "Why are you getting up so early?" Out of patience I snapped. "I'm trying to write." She got all indignant. But she finally left me alone. Thank you child. Please remember next time.
I'm also striving for 1,000 words, 5 days a week, with weekends to catch up if I need to. This is a reasonable word count for me. First, I had to go back to the beginning of my NANO story and fix it. I've worked on it steadily all week but deleted more words than I added. A couple of times I wanted to just push myself away from the computer and give up. But I talked myself out of it and shouted down the critic in my head who was whispering the word "crap" in my head. Over and Over.
Just show up, I told myself. Just keep putting words on the page. Doesn't matter what it is. You can't fix a blank page...
And guess what? This morning it all came together. I think I actually struck gold. I wrote some new scenes, changed their past relationship with each other and gave the hero a different mother.
Maybe there is something to this just showing up stuff and giving yourself permission to write crap.