Friday, April 2, 2010
Fear of Failure
I didn't want to face the hard work of making my words better, deleting some of those lovely scenes I struggled to write and replacing with scenes that better suit my characters. Or face the possibility that I don't have what it takes to get the job done. So I went back to my self-defeating behaviors of wanting to start over, wanting to abandon a project midway through, wanting to switch genres, wanting it to be perfect the first time.
In other words I was whining about it being too hard, too much work. I wanted it to be easy. To be magic. But I've spent ten years looking for the fairy dust to make writing a book a walk in the park. It doesn't exist. There's no secret handshake the published authors share that us unpublished have yet to encounter.
The only way to write a book is one word at a time.
And where have I heard that phrase before?